At the start of a relationship you're so giddy about potentially falling in love that for the most part, your usual anxieties seem to fall by the way side, and as all my fellow OCDers will know, the less anxious you are, the more bearable your OCD will become. When the water settles and it's just you two, starting at each-other, learning everything about one another? I'm not an expert on OCD and I most certainly am not an expert on dating (seriously, I'm clueless).
I use my beating heart to distract me from the oppressive thoughts I'm plagued with most days; my nervousness saving me, for once.
However, I live with OCD every day, and have experience mixing the two.
But this term is a misnomer, as people suffering with Pure O exhibit numerous, albeit less obvious, compulsions.
And while these compulsions are less noticeable by others, they still take a huge toll on sufferers. As with all forms of OCD, the compulsions done in ROCD are done in an effort to reduce the individual’s anxiety related to their unwanted obsessional thoughts.
Every minute, every second, of every hour all you hear is, “What if? Your heart and mind join forces becoming an evil villain that is out to destroy you and bring you down. The simplest things in life became huge mountains that are impossible to climb.
A family vacation, a night out with friends, or a walk around the block is a death trap.